D&D TravelEng: Spring Break in UT

This post is very over-due. And, despite my love for the English language, it cannot describe the feelings you have when spending time with love your loved ones.

There is nothing in the entire world that can bring so much love and so much pain / hurt / craziness like family. But, I wouldn't trade it for the world. Vacations used to be picture perfect weather, mountains of food, and laziness. With age (yes, I did say age- the front number of my AGE did change) the meaning of "vacation," slowly changes to being with the ones you love. And so off we went to Utah. 

Let's be honest- I went to see this little bundle of chubbiness. Although, he is starting to stretch out and is losing his chubbiness (not cool wee one), he's still so adorable!!!  You're supposed to stay small, little boy!! Gracie dear, I need another niece or nephew soon!

 I may be a biased Auntie, but I really don't think any baby can be cuter than this one.

Saturday morning bliss- eating, chatting with the BFF and baby boy! 

 Bro and Rachie prepping for the big party! 

 Happy Birthday Harrison! Can't believe it's been a year (and more) since you joined our family. You bring so much happiness into our lives. Wish I was closer to spoil you.. I pray that you continue to grow strong, healthy, and become a faithful and worthy man that serves God.

 Walking around the grounds of our alma mater. Oh how this place brings a flood of memories of our days at BYU.

* Note: I found out that those that were born in 1996 are attending BYU. WHAT THE EFFF? I can still remember the day I received my acceptance letter like yesterday. Time, you are a scary vicious thing! 

 Skeptical Harrison at the Duck Pond - a.k.a the place all the Mormon families hang out after church. 

 All Choi siblings minus the youngest. Siblings--you can't live with them, can't live without them. 

 My beautiful mommy and my beautiful /conceited self.

 He literally discovered *SWEETS. Crazy mom of his deprives him. Don't worry baby boy, when it comes to sugar, Auntie has got you covered! 

Oh how I missed snow. Real snow- white, fluffy, and powdery S-N-O---W!!!

 Our friendship consists of food. And sometimes laughter. 

 New Provo Temple in downtown Provo.

Salt Lake City Template- Conference Weekend

My loves. 

 Friends and babies. Lots of babies--  Welcome to Utah. 

Sundance, Utah

David and I (especially I) often think about "our children." I am physically unable to bring children into this world but I do know my children are out there somewhere- maybe not yet born into this world but I do know they are there. And I pray that I am becoming the mother they deserve. 

There are times I strongly oppose having children because I am afraid of not only bringing them into this scary world of ours, but raising them into worthy children of God. So much responsibility and accountability I am not yet prepared to tackle. How can I be responsible for such a tiny human being that has such a precious and innocent soul? I think of our Father in Heaven-- He knew and knows what the world will throw at us and will continue to throw at us. He knows of the temptations we will face, the evil that lurks behind every corner of our lives. He knows that life will continuously challenge us... But because of his tremendous love for us,  He gifts us with a life on earth.

 Again, when I am in doubt, I think of my Lord, my Savior, my Redeemer, my Shepard, my King.. And suddenly I feel as if I can tackle anything. Lots to think about tonight. 

This crazy family of mine-- minus my daddy and baby brother. 

Baby Boy, Utah, and the Present

Super duper long over due post but it's now or never. OHMYGOSH.

It's really December guys! December.... 

Not much to update. Husband dearest is finishing up his first semester of year THREE of UTSW! Whattt??? 아싸라비야나이스붕붕!!!! Can I just say.. having husband gone every third day has been awful. The surgery rotation he was on was absolutely horrible. Our schedules were complete opposite and we barely saw each other. I came to really hope for moments with David. And when we were granted with time here and there, I truly appreciated it. Appreciated David. Heavenly Father really does have these intentional "teaching moments/learning curves.." 

With the holidays and such, I've been thinking of family. And time.

Living countries and States away from family is so hard. My family has had to do it for quite some time. The moments when all six of us were together, all at once, was pretty slim. Family, it's a weird thing. You have no choice to see the very best and the very very worst in a human being. You hate them with all your guys yet your the first person to defend them when others start to criticize them. 

I was able to fly out (awhile ago, back in Oct) and visit (some of) my family. Who am I kidding.  I went solely to see this baby boy. Cutest bundle of fatness joy!! Oh his squishy cheeks are absolutely delicious!

It's crazy! He's grown so much... Oh how time flies.. 

Visits to Utah also requires gab-fests with friends. There's a saying in Korea that says if you have three friends that you can count on, you've lived a successful life. I'm lucky to have such jewels in my life because I can count at least three friends that I trust in a heartbeat.

I've been thinking a lot about time. Have you ever thought about how we never appreciate time?
Our past mostly filled with regret, and how we're so concerned about our unknown future. We spend too much time living in the past, worrying about the future, we rarely live the moment and enjoy the present..

 We're all allotted the same amount of time. Unlike money or any other tangible thing, we cannot save it, borrow it, or share it with others. We have the same amount of time. But the way we use time will result in a different life overall. Kinda scary, huh? {Of course I start trying to calculate how much time I waste on Social Media. Darn you FB and YouTube. Oh, and Instagram. I've become a slave, completely addicted to my phone.. I'm thinking about Social Media fast.. What do you think? Yay or nay?} Anyow, going back to "time," I recently read a book called, "the Present" by Spencer Johnson. It's good. Inspiring in an informative way. Maybe it's the aftermath of the book or maybe because I'm turning the dirty thirty next year but I'm realizing again and again the importance of making the most out of the present.

“If you are depressed you are living in the past.
If you are anxious you are living in the future.
If you are at peace you are living in the present.”

-Lao Tzu

Oh Utah, my beautiful Utah. 

Anyhow, I'm grateful for the chance I had to fly out and see my family and get in tune with mother nature again. And, glad my mind is clouded with random thoughts that come here and there. It pushes me to do better. Become better. First day of the last month of 2015! What will you do to make it worthwhile?