HE knows best.

Hubs is going to Medical School this year. Don't ask where we're going because we have no idea.

But, it's interesting how things are turning out. Isn't it weird we think we know the best and think our will is God's will? You would think after twenty five years, I would've learned a lesson.

How often do we get angry, upset at our Heavenly Father when things do not turn out the way we expected. I've already lost count.. But, I do know, in the end, everything happened the way it did for a better reason. 

Short story- when I was applying to college, I only applied to BYUH and BYU. Although I grew up in Utah and loved it, I did not want to suffocate myself in the high elevation and coldness. I was so sure BYUH would be the place.After all, my heart would go crazy in high elevation or cold weather so Utah was out of the question.  A month before leaving for Hawaii, I remember watching 50 First Dates and having "visions" of my sunny days in Hawaii. Coconut water, sun-bathing, sushi everyday... I also dreamed of marrying a very dark and muscular Polynesian as well. When I told my parents, church members they all told me they had a feeling I should go to Provo. 'Uhh. yeah right! Are you the one with the heart problem? NO! I am. And I know my heart can't handle Provo. My cardiologist said I would do better at sea-level locations' I would yell at them in my mind.

However, Lo and behold, when I got to Hawaii, I had SVT (Supraventricular Tachycardia) episodes every other hour! Even in Logan, at the most, it happened twice a day. After three days, I knew Hawaii was just not the place. It was so difficult and frustrating to understand why His will was not mine.
How silly to think His will has to be mine when I am the one that must learn to make my will become His will. My parents felt as if it was Heavenly Father's way of telling me Hawaii was not for me. After coming back home to Korea, I didn't have an episode for months. Weird, huh? After a year, I reluctantly found my way back to Utah. My heart did have random episodes but maybe every other month. I met the most amazing friends at BYU and of course, my Davie. I was also able to receive an ablation surgery and my SVTs are gone forever!! So, in the end, Provo really was the place for me and He knew that is where I had to spend my college year. Only the best happened in Provo. Thank you my dear Lord for being so patient and loving even when I am so impatient and hard-hearted.

God really does know what is best for us. He would never guide us into something without a good reason. Knowing that, my heart is at peace. Can't lie, I'm anxious, nervous, and scared. Just a little more patience and we will know where the next four years will take place. Prayers would be much appreciated. Here are some pics of schools David just *might* attend. Any guesses?

 

Moi Green Babies

Every time I scroll down the FB news feed, I pause to linger at a picture of a baby or toddler that a proud mommy posted. At church, when I really should be paying attention to the meetings, all I really do is stare at all the chubby little babies that are crawling around or squirming for freedom in their mommy's bosom. And my oh my they are so freaking adorable! One family has four girls and literally every Sunday, one of them throws a very shrilling tantrum, especially the third one. She yells at her dad, "stop touching me." I think she's maybe three.. lol. The dad is bald. David believes daughters will do this to their dad. He shudders at the thought of having only girls while I daydream of frills, lace, rainbows and butterflies.

 It doesn't help that I have these adorable nieces and my sister-in-laws posts pictures on FB all the time. Once I asked David if Matt and Alissa might let us borrow Libby. Or if one of his sisters would let me be their nanny if we moved to Texas.  His oldest sister has thee girls (my ideal), and Kate just had a baby. (I just need to hold a baby right now... Anybody?? ) Rachel, bless her heart, has three boys. (You're going straight to heaven Rachel)! He thinks I'm creepy, which I probably am.When I am exhausted out of my mind at work or having a bad day, I ask my sister-in-law Alissa for a video of Libby or I text a friend to send me a picture of their baby..

And there you have it, I am baby hungry, very very baby hungry to the max.

Unfortunately, I do not have the privilege to carry my own child due to my abnormal heart. David and I will either have to adopt or seek out for a surrogate mother. Sigh. Sometimes, life is so unfair. I know I'm being childish and ungrateful. Being born with a messed up heart, I should be grateful for the fact I am alive this very second and breathing in this (horrid) Utah air. But, when life seems so normal, you forget to count your blessings and become selfish. Sometimes, I ask God why He refuses to give me what I want most and end up angry. It's the 'if you loved me, why won't you give me what I want?' childish and bratty phase I go through.. All I want is my own children! Is that too hard to ask? Everyone else around me seems have countless little munchkins surrounding them but me.

Well, since we need to patient and wait until we have enough money to adopt or find a surrogate mother (which will really be never) I decided to fill my emptiness by starting a new hobby (the brilliant idea was mine. All the hard work was done by my very patient husband) - gardening!
Well, for now we are in the testing phase! I actually had given up because the seeds we planted refused to release themselves out of the soil. You darn stubborn seeds!

However, look at these green specks now! Here are my little babies trying so hard to grow. Can't explain how excited I was to see these actually grow. I might have jumped up and down when I saw one of them shyly nudging its way out. heehee. For now, I am content with my green babies.

P.S., Here a some pics of our adventures in the past month.:

First time cooking asparagus.

A day in Provo. Hubs dragged me to a Finance Seminar at BYU specifically for couples. In return, I begged that we spend a night so I could hang out with my girlfriends. I love the hubs but was itiching for some girl time!
Btw, Emily and Rebecca are single. Only the brave get the beautiful!!

My one and only-  Love dragging him to Barnes and Nobles.

Happy CNY!

Happy (belated) Chinese New Years everyone!
The Eng household, which is a unique mix of Chinese and Korean blood both consider
Chinese/Lunar New Years to be one of the biggest and meaningful holidays!
And, to stick to both of our traditions, we enjoyed a feast- ddukguuk (rice cake) which is a Korean tradition and enjoyed a plateful of dumplings which is Chinese tradition.

Happy CNY!!
Love the Engs

As I have married a "Chinese"-American-Canadian, I decided CNY would be a fresh start for me and made some new realistic  New Year's resolutions. Actually, as of now, I will focus on one I desperately need to implement in my daily life:

• Instead of focusing on losing weight, I will cut out dessert. Let's not forget the "realistic" factor-I will "slowly" start cutting out dessert. 

Yes, I know it's silly. But after starting a desk job and sitting at a desk eight hours (or more) a day, I have noticeably gotten bigger. And, since I sit all day long, I eat, all day long. When I come home, I'm tired from work, so I naturally munch on sweets. It's an evil cycle. And I need to stop-not just for my weight but also for my health. Wish me luck. Slowly but surely, I'm saying goodbye to sugar.

quarter century!

The husband is twenty-five today! Just wanted to shout out a HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my hubby.

He think he's royalty, my David. Taking a day off work just because it is his birthday and relaxing while dearest wifey worked all day long ! Jk~  

The weather was a bit down so David picked me up from work, went shopping and picked up some manly boots for the hubs. After, ate a very calorie filling meal, hit the dollar theater and came home and helped ourselves to some cake. Pretty good b-day, if I do so say myself.

I don't want to get mushy and affectionate, but I'm glad David was born and grateful he is mine now!

He's a keeper! Happy b-day dear David. Welcome to your mid-twenties! 

@ Sweet Ginger  with our friends!! 

six months and counting till eternity

David and I have been married for six months!! Just like hubby said, marriage, in its own way has been a challenge for the both of us. We hear the first year is the hardest and boy oh boy, it's been interesting. Ahhh.. How funny people think marriage is the happy ending. It's certainly happy, but I'd like to think of it more as a happy beginning- I was thrilled but yet fearful to start a new chapter in life.

But, I'm certain I couldn't have made it work with anyone else but David.

Mondays, always the dreadful 12 hour shift for me: 6am-6pm. So, when I walked into our apartment,

was I thrilled to find a cute surprise!( I shouldn't brag but this is my blog so don't mind if I do).

He also took me out to Outback Steakhouse. Back in the old dating days, we would go to Outback on every 22nd and share a steak to celebrate! (We became official on 10/22/2011).

However, since we got engaged, we decided to stop splurging... but hubby thought today was an exception. He tried surprising me but hubby is an open book-of course when he said "American restaurant" I knew it was this special place. 

Celebrating our six months of marriage
 @ Outback Steak house.
Our waiter, 'how can two small Asians eat so much?!!!'
Oh no, they're Asian, no tip for me..'

All day long, I was reminiscing of the day of our marriage- the sealing at the Bountiful Temple, the beautiful reception with our family and friends, the quick but crazy stop we made at Cafe Rio all decked out in our wedding clothes, our romantic night (hehe), our honey sweet moon in Cancun... 

I know we have a lot of trials in the future. But, I'm not scared as long as we face them together as husband and wife. Oh dear husbands out there- just remember, "happy wife, happy life!" The wife is always right!

Firefly Portraiture

Firefly Portraiture
Our engagement photo

HAPPIEST DAY OF MY LIFE- 8/4/2012

Firefly Portraiture
My best friends and the hubby.

My fav picture of our Bridal Party  

Mmmm.. Cake!!

Starry night ?

Our wonderful family (minus my bro Jimmy, Tim and Kathleen and Rachel Eng)

... What the brown ?? 

        ------------  HONEY SWEET MOON ----------

Our first night in Cancun! 

Take me back to the beach!!! 

Why am I in UT... ?? 

My sweet Chicken little ! 

Honey sweet moon ~

Last but not least, Mr.David Eng- my one and only. The love of my life.

Happy six months babe!! Forever and ever~ 

6 months later...

Hi everyone, David here.  I can't believe Diana and I have been married for 6 months now!  Time sure flies...  and yet it also seems like we've been married forever.  In a good way, haha.  Here are some things I learned about marriage so far:

1.  It's not all daisies and butterflies.  We learned that marriage can be challenging, but we learned how to deal with our differences.  I'm glad Diana can put up with me.  ^^
2.  You have to put each other first.  We've learned how to sacrifice for each other.  It's hard because we can't do whatever we want like we could when we were single.
3.  Communication.  I'm not that good at communicating, which has been amply pointed out by my dear wife.  Haha.  But I think I'm getting a little bit better.
4.  Patience.  Need I say more?

Well... that's about all I learned.  jk.  I've learned so much that I can't really think about what to write about, but those are four big things that come to mind.  Although I make it sound like marriage is hard, it has really been the happiest time of my life.  I'm so glad that I met such an amazing girl to share my life with!  Love you Diana!~~

The happiest day of our lives!

Handyman Davie

My parents own a condo in downtown SLC. While my brother is serving a mission, I am the "landlord" that collects rent, pay mortgage, sends out contracts...


But,(and most landlords will agree) I dread the "something is broken" calls..


How the heck am I supposed to know how to fix a broken shower cap or a dysfunctional garbage disposal?

The tenants called me to inform me that the garbage disposal wasn't working.. Uh oh.. That sounds like an emergency. I already had to clean the carpets. Was NOT happy that I had to spend extra money to call out for a plumber. That's when hubby steps in with his toolbox and magical hands and fixes it!

Although it took up most of our Saturday, David fixed the darn disposal!Looking at David while he fixed my disposal, I fell more in love with  It probably wasn't that difficult of a job for him. But he took precaution with every step he made to fix the disposal. And it made me so grateful that I married a guy who has good work ethic, brains, skilled hands, and a kind and generous heart. I am not afraid of the future as long as he is in my life.

Look what we had for our weekend date- Rumbi! We used buy one entree, pay $1 for another entree!!
Never underestimate the power of coupons! :)

My favorite entree at Rumbi-
ask for Rumbi rice which is a sweet coconut taste!