Pre-Dating Memories

As I sit down at the table/desk and get ready to wind down, I take a look at David who is sitting across from me. Like always, he is staring at his computer, studying for his upcoming test. He looks more anxious than usual. Med school has aged him a teensy bit. Because his wife has been binging on Gilmore Girls non-stop (thank you Netflix), he has earphones to drown the sound. He sounds out weird medical words that I cannot comprehend from time to time.  Oh med school, stop changing him so... Then in hits me. Tomorrow, the 22nd of October will be the three year mark of when we first started dating-- officially DTRed and became boyfriend and girlfriend.

When it all began.. Yellow Stone

Weather in Dallas has finally begun to tone down and it actually feels more like fall. I brought out some of my body lotions. Can a certain hint of smell make you so nostalgic? For me, a whiff of Victoria Secret's Amber Romance and I'm instantly taken back to Fall semester of 2011 at BYU. I'm smiling now, as I think back to the days before boyfriend and girlfriend.

These were some of my journal entires right before we started dating. As you can tell, I was an emotional rollercoaster.

09-17-2011

"David Eng, who would've thought? Ready to ruin a good friendship again? I wish I could control my feelings towards him. What are the chances. I feel as if we do have somthing. There IS something between us and we know but we both refuse to admit because we're afraid to ruin our friendship. But, can a boy and a girl REALLY remain as "just friends?" It will either be more than friends, or the friendship will come to an end. We do have something... right? Or, will this be another stupid crush?"

09-20-2011
"I'm not talking to David until he talks to me first. Jerk."

09-26-2011
"David makes me want to become a better person. I guess I do like him (at least today I do), so I will just go with it."

10-11-2011
"Invited David over for dinner. OMG!!! Am I going to get heartbroken? Or, will this all be worth it? He makes me want to become a better person."


10-12-2011
"Father in Heaven, why can't I just meet the right guy without having to play games, waste time, and break my heart? Why are you doing this to me?"

10-14-2011
"PLEASE MAKE A MOVE DAVID ENG!"


10-19-2011
"David makes me happy. So happy. I know I need to be honest and stop guarding my feelings by telling him to date other girls. I just need to be honest and stop talking opposite! Why do I suck at expressing my true feelings? Better yet, why can't he read between the lines??!! Men are so dumb! When I tell you to date someone, I want you to say, "no! I want to date you!" ERGGG

10-21-2011
"David and I have been ... progressing. A lot, I guess? We had dinner and of course, talked about dating. It was awkward at first since it was just us two but we gave each other back massages then he accidently asked if I thought "we" could date. As in friends. .. "Do you think we, I mean friends can date?" After a movie at his cousin's, we went over to his place. Then, he finally made the move. FINALLY! We decided to talk tomorrow. I'm scared... But it feels right."

10-22-2011 
"David and I decided to officially start dating. I'm excited for David and Diana and our future."

For those of you who don't know our story, click here.

Us, on 10-29-11 Church Halloween Party

Us, in Vegas. Side note- we went to Vegas for Thanksgiving (a month after we started dating), we fought every single day during this trip.. We'll have to go back to recreate memories.

Oh my, how the tables have  turned. I am still excited for David and Diana and our future. Three years. Holy cow!!

Thanks for reading a few random scratches of my thoughts. Tonight, I am grateful for a lot of things my Heavenly Father gave me. But mostly, for the past that David and I shared.

Learning how to become more dependent, away from Utah, my family and friends, has been a battle.
I still fight off challenges each day. But, there is one person that is in it with me. And, I'm really glad it is that Chinese dude sitting right across from me. Somethings never change.